Looking back at older posts i have noticed that i am an observant person, i like to sit and watch people, how do they coordiate themselves within thier own surroundings? a rediculously sociological question but it is a habbit i have always had, even as a young child i watched the bodylanguge of others and perhaps this os one of the reasons im not comfortable with people i know and love sitting close to me, in the car i am conciously aware of how someone rests their head on the seatbelt and how it rubs on thier face slightly, it sometimes stops me from sleeping, combined with my inability to switch off i can be up till late morning. My partner thankfully after six years understands that if he wakes up and im propped up on the pillows with my eyes wide open that im not about to smother him, but am just listening ( i love to listen to his stomach gurgling but i feel thats just plain odd) and thinking.
Because of this i am highly aware of peoples feelings and emotions let alone my own, in conversation with classmate Puy (French for well?) she discussed this habbit to great detail, each time i feel angry (even though it doesnt happen much) i plant something in my garden, my beautiful garden. Its my way of giving away wasteful energy, by the time im done i feel considerably more relaxed, 'why is your garden so nice?'
Above: Phillipa and the tree operation
Ha! Im no Buddhist but i understand that nothing good ever comes from being angry.
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